Vent time...

What is the definition of caring about someone? I'm pretty sure it does not mean that you lie to them, for weeks on end. It doesn't mean making them cry, and having it have NO effect you whatsoever. It doesn't mean that you go out and forget about the person. It doesn't mean that you all of a sudden want to apologize for hurting that person and say that it's killing you. I call B.freaking.S. You didn't care. Don't pretend you do. If you did, you wouldn't have lied. If you did, you would have stayed my friend and wouldn't have given up a best friend for someone like that. (No offense :]) Seriously Drew. Don't make me freaking laugh.

Great Grandma, I thought maybe I should help you out since you mentioned that you didn't ever know who I am talking about. Here's a little synopsis.

Tyler: The guy that I'm currently "writing on a mission." Him and I have been best friends for years, and he liked me for a very long time. He asked me to Junior prom first, which I said yes to. But then I started dating my ex, Nathan. Nathan wanted to go with me so I went back on my date with Tyler and went with Nathan. Tyler is currently in Uruguay for 2 years serving a mission for my church. He's been out for 14 months and still has 10 left to go. During this mission, I'm not allowed to talk to him on the phone, text him, or see him. It is strictly letter writing the whole entire time. I can't even email him. But, that's okay. I still go on dates and stuff, but I really want to date this kid when he returns in October 2010 :] If you'd like, you could think of him as my "boyfriend" I guess, but we aren't totally. Let's just say it's a complicated situation, but I feel as though I need to date him and see where it goes when he gets home so I write him weekly.

Nathan: As I said in the post above, Nathan is an "ex" of 9 months. We were never "official" but we were doing everything that a couple does. He came to school here at BYUI, and cheated on me. 3 times. Bad thing is, I found out from the girls. I met the girls somehow someway, and then they'd talk about Nathan. Then we'd find out that he was dating me, and getting.... with the other girls. He's now on a mission in Arizona, and we don't write much. I lost all respect for him.

Drew: A guy here at school that I met. Him and I became close friends, quickly. He is a Returned missionary. He went on a mission to Canada. He was my best friend and I thought I could tell him everything. He would say that he loved me and stuff until one night, he decided not to be friends with me because he magically got a girlfriend and had been lying to me for weeks. I don't handle lying very well, so we aren't friends anymore. He broke my trust. Stupid boy.

Jon: You met him. He's the one who owned the landscaping company and came to visit me in Colorado. When I broke up with him, he went crazy and depression set in. We've tried to be friends over and over, and it's just now getting to the point where he can handle talking to me. I'm trying to be his friend, but he's still super hurt.

As for girls that I would talk about in the blog posts:

Lindsey, Emily and Carolyn are my roommates here at school.
AnnCheri is my best friend of about 6 or 7 years.

I think that's all I talk about :]

Oh, and grandma, when I say the names Edward or Jacob it's that Twilight movie thing. :] Not actual guys.

I love you family. Can't wait to see you all again.